After work thoughts...
There was some sort of party or something going on at work today. I didn't bother to look, but the owner packed me food to take home which is what's pictured. Clearly some hispanic thing, I assume Mexican but the entire central america's has these kinds of dishes so I can't say for sure. As I'm about to eat, I think about the stuff I said today and wonder if anybody actually even reads that stuff. I digress, time to eat and sit on my thoughts while I chew on leftover food.
A feast for sure. Guacamole, salsa verde, salsa, cilantro, cabbage, radishes, empanada, tacos, taquitos and one disc shaped thing I'm not entirely sure what it's called. I'll google it later, looks like a mini pizza.
update: it was a sope
I got about halfway through and tapped out. Consolidated into one to eat later.
She even packed me some dessert. How sweet of her.
update: I googled the dessert, it seems to be a mexican hojaldre pastry
I believe it's apricot jam on the inside based on the color and taste. The almonds mask the scent of the jam so it's hard to tell. Even the jam tastes like it, so likely it was mixed in with the apricot providing sweetness.
Pretty good stuff, probably better warmed up a bit. Saving the rest for later.
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I stare at my messy room and consider what to do in the next few off days. A load of laundry or 2 is definitely in order. I did a clean load of socks and underwear and a clean load of pants a week ago so I still have that to put away. Most of the laundry on the floor are either shorts, pajama pants, shirts or hoodies. I will likely do a load of shirts first, then a load of hoodies/shorts/pj's as the shirts will need to be hung up to avoid wrinkling while the 2nd load can sit in the laundry basket.
Ah yes, planning laundry as if I'm not purely procrastinating from doing necessary chores. Classic me.
The weather tomorrow looks good, and although there's rain on the forecast later this week, the temperatures will rise which is ideal since I have the radiator guard for the R9 I still need to install.
Still debating on doing a whole install video on it or if I just go ahead and do it just say screw it. Probably just screw it(quite literally, it needs to be bolted on to the radiator). Jokes aside, I'm glad the temperatures are rising and I can go do more motorcycle stuff. It's been a rather frigid period and some nice weather would do wonders for my head space.
It's been a rather tumultuous season for myself this year, I'm glad I chose a hobby that I can be so enamored with.
That got my brain spinning a little bit for a funny gag.
Har har, shiver me timbers. How ranchy.
Rub a dub dub, thanks for the wafer filled with nutella.
Bottoms up!
It even looks like a baguette.
Crikey.
Indented for sharing? Incidentally not sharing.
Who the fuck shares a single pack?
Then you break out the shareable. Sharing is caring so they say(not sharing by the way)
I find white chocolate to be a rather fascinating product. Even just containing the oil from the cocoa counts as chocolate. But this product, cookies n cream, contains less than 2% cocoa butter so it does not qualify. Fascinating.
I looked it up online, it must contain at least 20% cocoa butter to be considered white chocolate. Interesting.
I'm no chocolatier, but if I didn't know any better, it's pretty much the same thing taste wise. If you can taste a 18% difference in the butter content, you'd need to be employed as a taste tester.
Upon further digging, it seems the only real tell would be how it melts in your mouth based on the percentage. Makes sense. Melting point of cocoa butter is quite different. Probably the only reliable tell with the other flavors overpowering the subtle scent of cocoa butter.
I suppose I'll do a load of laundry now. I feel a little dirty after that line of thought.
Sprinkles for the colored T's
>Cue Hey There DelilahHow's it like in the dirty laundry
You're less than 1 foot away but tonight you look so filthy, yes you do.
Unwashed care can't stink as bad as you, I swear it's true...
(No it doesn't smell that bad, just clearly used)
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Re-read what I wrote to make sure I don't sound like a paranoid schizophrenic.
Speaking of, I was remembering on the way home how when I was a freshmen in high school, I wrote a poem during literature class as part of the assignment. I wrote an epistrophe, with the ending being "I'm a paranoid schizophrenic". Good times. I remember distinctly how after I finished reading it, one kid in the class just straight up asked "Are you actually a paranoid schizophrenic?" which I replied "No, of course not". I think about it and maybe I didn't even realize I was lying. I've always been kinda like that. Telling the truth can in itself sometimes be a lie.
I definitely fit the qualifications if you consider the multiple definitions. Legally speaking, I am a mentally stable, morally and ethically aligned individual who tries to be a good samaritan. However, being a creative as it may, you tend to don many masks for many purposes. It's a skillset of sorts, like getting into "work mode" or "gym mode", you go into a flow state for the particular aspect. Only when negative, is it considered a "mental disorder". When redirected, it's "art" or "genius" or "savant" or what have you. Just optics or how it appears to others, ignoring the mechanisms behind engineered or crafted presentations.
Not much different from presenting a powerpoint presentation. That person is clearly not talking to the whole room 24/7. Unless one were placed in a situation where that is the case, then the entire "order" would in fact just be "disorder" no?
Another meditation topic. Let it stew a bit.
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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rat_torture
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I'm not entirely sure what caused me to suddenly google this, but it's simply a thought experiment with significant history of appearance and cases throughout literature.
Y'know for someone who doesn't read much, I seem to remember a lot of....literary devices.
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I'm currently awaiting my vape juice in the mail. Only problem is I'm dangerously low on what I have left. We're talking running on empty levels. Honestly considering going to go buy a pack of cigarettes if worst comes to worst because I don't want to bother having to go through withdrawal symptoms right now. If it arrives by tomorrow, we're good, otherwise I'll go buy a pack tomorrow night or something. Maybe do a moto vlog. Not entirely set on anything yet. Just playing it by ear.
Do it again mommy, I'll be a bad boy, I promise, hit me.
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What a track to be on. My horns were showing again. Whoops.
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Had to double check my settings to make sure I wasn't being out of line.
Can't imagine I was.
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I often double check my stuff with AI, knowingly feeding it my own consciousness to chew up and spit out into a data lake somewhere for an eternity. At this point, it's now just accepted loss of data as I'm willingly posting it online. Checking for logical inconsistencies and having something to play mental racquetball with.
Its rather soothing in many ways.
Still somehow feels better to put it on a blog rather than just ChatGPT as at least then it's easier to track on my end rather than organizing it on ChatGPT's limited User Interface. While it is good, it is definitely not a blog. Right tool for the right job or so they say, spellcheck for AI, posting for the Blogger UI.
I've cut back quite a lot on my usage of AI compared to before. Most of my thoughts end up leaking into social media rather than to a Language Learning Model as of late. It makes me feel a tad bit better that I'm not on the hype train any longer for the foreseeable future. Just hitching a ride here and there for simple stuff like a quick and dirty recipe or a basic answer to questions that are a bit too advanced for a google search.
I've noticed trying to be too in-depth with ChatGPT and other LLM's, is their limited long-term storage issues. You can only carry so much context inside a single user instance for a LLM. They all have different workarounds. For example, ChatGPT will skim most of the information, save crucial ones and assume/presume many things based on conversation context. Very easy to catch when lying. Claude on the other hand maintain conversation histories but doesn't have as much variety as ChatGPT in the ability to tie together many patterns and templates across conversation logs. At least in my personal experience of usage. Other LLM's share similar issues, but I personally don't have as much experience in that aspect.
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As I recollect my mind and get ready to lay down, I checked my vitals just to see what they're currently like. Pretty good numbers. Considering I don't do any cardio to speak of and the last I went to the gym was months ago, I'd say I seem to be in relatively good physical condition.
Although the mental could always use work, but that's discussion for another time. I stare at the bag of Pepper X situated in front of my keyboard and think about the the ramifications of consuming the pepper in such a short period between the hot sauces. I don't believe there's a need for concern considering I've been consuming the last dab daily at this point, but consuming the raw fruit itself is a bit of a different story. I hope my body can take it. I haven't decided when I'm going to eat it, but I'll wait until my gut instinct says it's probably good. Right now, it doesn't seem that happy still so I'll give it additional breathing room.
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