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my hands and feet seem to be finally recovering from the emotional arc I was going through. It honestly felt like a kaio ken moment where my senses were just dialed in so hard. it honestly did feel like destiny even though I had no idea what I was doing and i dont know what I even did. Probably one day I understand it more once time passes.  Havent played so much guitar and bass in recent times. Its been so great to be able to reconnect to music as such a fundamental level and to also go so hard into poetry. Something I avoided for a long time due to the "sissy" or "girly" nature of it I had. I feel more confidence as an artist now although I still have a long ways to go before I can create something that can truly reach those dead npcs we call others. If only others could feel what I feel. The intensity is seriously unreal. I wasnt built for this world, which is why I feel i have a duty to change it. fuck you if you dont like it. come fucking fight me. you wont cuz...

 Hello Once Again. It's been a hot minute since I've written a post and I apologize to absolutely nobody. Just kidding, that's just a joke implying nobody reads this. I am apologetic in writing this, but hey, I've come back to write another post. Recently I've taken to studying the MBTI(Myers–Briggs Type Indicator), along with socionics. Let me preface by saying I'm not expert(Especially since it's been only a week since I started the deep-dive) and that what I type here is simply my perspective and opinion on the matter. It indeed is psuedoscience and myself, find this subject highly skeptical and suspect. However, it's been a very curiosity quenching experience. https://wikisocion.github.io/en/index.html https://sakinorva.net/tests https://typevolution.com/ I won't go too far into details as it's irrelevant to the post, but here are some of the reading material I've been going through on and off.  The most thought provoking aspect of readin...

 There is debate to be had how often a blog needs to updated. A regular update schedule can create habits and routine, something that people need for consistency, security, etc. People like repetition and find safety in it. The way I see it, it also acts as a limiting factor and stress factor. Like many things, it seems like a give and take having a routine. Long winded way to say, I'll probably try to update at least once a week, but no more than every other day. Giving myself some leeway in punctuality is something seemingly comfortable for me. I eventually plan on doing a Road of Music roads blog as well. I am currently 5 days out from a live performance at the restaurant I work at. To give a little backstory, music has been a hobby of mine since a young age. I've performed various instruments as well as sang in front of an audience many times. As much of a rockstar I make myself out to be, it really doesn't get any easier to stand in front of people and do something I e...

Is it money I'm after? Why did I start a blog? I think it's important to clear out such thoughts from my head as the content creator in this scenario. Sure, I believe it would be nice to generate income from a blog, but let's look at reality. What are the odds this will ever generate revenue? I won't state a number, but I would wager the odds are probably abysmal. So no, I didn't start this with a financial incentive. Then what am I after? As I stated in the first post, as well as briefly in the second post, I don't have a destination set. Other's often perceive me as confident, defensive, scheming. Or maybe that's my delusion. I can't speak for others except for what has been spoken. I see myself as a twisted, cynical homunculus.  ho·mun·cu·lus /həˈməNGkyələs,hōˈməNGkyələs/ noun a very small human or humanoid creature. It is not up to me how others perceive me for that is not my place nor my right. I try not to care how others see me, but it's d...

Unfortunately, this is the first post. Meaning that this is the road to blogging. I personally have no experience with blogging and have extremely low expectations. What I do expect is some inner reflection to be had by taking up this challenge.  So what is blogging? Ironically close to bragging, but a form of content in text format. Unlike articles, blogging doesn't necessitate a particular purpose or goal or narrative. A bit more free form expression about anything. Or maybe nothing. You could say freedom to do whatever, but freedom has it's costs contrary to western beliefs. They say that the best things in life are free, but they also say everything has a price.  With a candid heart, I conclude this first post. The intention of this is uncertain at this time, however the goal is to have multiple roads. One for each and every one of my interests that I feel deserves mention, written out for anyone, more likely no one, to read.