Work Blog 2
I got cut off by some soccer mom in a KIA telluride. I started weaving behind her and played a little cat and mouse. I knew it got to her because she came to a full stop before a left turn. I just continued to follow a safe distance to be tailwagging rather than tailgating.
Then her kids turned around to look at me.
What a riot. I passed them revving my engine and giving them a little nod.
Starting shit with married women. That's moto life for ya.
No one taught them how to drive or taught them road manners clearly.
They ate my dust involuntarily. What a blast.
I couldnt give a pho about it, but i can eat one for lunch. even on my break from spicy, the standard is beyond what most can even stomach. weak sauce.
As I sit here valing and priming myself for the shift after finishing my lunch, I contemplate.
Why didnt i refill my vape pod?
Oh well, not the end of the world.
I've dealt with much worse than nicotine withdrawal, like living with my mother and 4 parrots.
You wanna talk about testing limits, that's the edge case right there. You'd need to become a saint to stay sane.
Funnily, still preferable to a salaried career. Those 20 hours a week saved from not grinding away my mettle, saving them for another will. No taste of blood in my mouth, just diet coke, some spice and the lingering taste of the vape that sometimes spits back.
As my body churns to detox the constant poison I ingest, I take another hit that's my saving grace.
Damn, another good day.
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I think I've gotten a bit better at capturing the moment of my thoughts for better storytelling. Despite no feedback, I feel a noticeable improvement in what kind of vibe I'm attempting to convey in the photographs I take.
It's difficult to explain, but I'm satisfied with my progress. Not much else to say.
Definitely better than the stuff I was taking 10 years ago at least.
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They say a watched pot never boils, but that's what happens every time I go to work. It always boils. Every time. Without fail. Who came with that saying? Do they understand basic thermodynamics? How stupid.
Interpret what, that its a false statement? Wow, so deep, lets refute the obvious. Much art. Very avant garde.
clowns.
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Money can indeed buy you a boat(in my case a bike)
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=mQPjKSVe1tQ
but it won't buy you skills, lol.
That's not included in the package unfortunately, you gotta byob, bring your own balls.
My day consists of just finding reasons to take a picture of something even if its just myself.
Just a compulsive disorder.
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There's a lull at work so I'm just jotting down some of my excess thoughts.
It's weird I find myself yearning for more but never reaching for it. Mainly because I know I will be punished for it. Always been the case. I learned my lessons the hard way. If it's meant to be, it will be. Overextending always leads to off balance. Like riding a motorcycle. Always ride your own ride. Leave everyone else behind because they're only in it for themselves.
They can stay caged.
I'll go my own way. That's what a motorcycle taught me. It's been the unshakling aspect of my life.
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=HzvDofigTKQ
I took the long way, no point trying to change my strategy now. Call it sunken cost, my own life is already sinking anyway. Might as well think about it.
One thing I consider is how...unresponsive people are even on direct communications. It's pretty puzzling. No one will do anything unless there's a gun to their head. How foolish. Guns are long range.
I've taken the liberty of quite literally taking receipts to CEO's and Politicians and nothing changes. I just assume I can just kill people without issues because clearly thats what they do.
Its a fun thought experiment. If someone kills someone with a net worth of 500 billion, the price is just that one person's death.
Seems like lives are still worth a life.
No amount of zeroes seem to be more fitting than a life for a life regardless of laws or regulations.
Philsophy.
I would think being part of an organization that's been convicted of actual murders and killings would make one an accomplice to a crime, but apparently not.
I think about how many people died this past week because of this food. Probably too many to count.
Makes me wonder about the people with perfect kdr a lot. I wonder if they think about the amount of string attached the food you eat every day comes with.
Makes me wonder how much I myself will tolerate the ignorance myself.
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=BdEe5SpdIuo
I saw my equifax credit score the other day. 828. How meaningless.
Yeah, my qualifications for taking on debt is very high. Thank you. I don't care.
Manifesto? Nah, Man is infested though.
No manuscript to speak of. No ethics or scrolls, no morals or goals.
Pulls out any ancient text to justify though.
Not sure how long you want this game to go on. My tolerance is much greater than yours, my understanding of the game is greater than yours and I have more skills to execute any gameplan better than yours. Including any trips from here to New York, Bangok to Newark, Seoul to Denmark. My line of credit is my credit line and I'm calling toll free from this hotline. You hear me ringing and you know the heat I'm bringing. Keep one eye open, you never know when I'm not ready. My heart is always beating and the clock just struck eleven.
I can eat a full meal watching gore. Even surgery. It's been like that for a loooooong time. Ever smell raw sewage? I did in my teens.
Desensitized is never the word for it because I've kept my sensitivity. The word is tolerance and it can only grow so large before it tips over. I think that's the case for anybody, regardless of temperament. It's only human.
You can only stave off basic needs for so long. Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness.
If not, then what is life? Pointless.
And I have a lot of points that never get addressed.
Perhaps I need to address them directly.
I'll wait for now. They say patience is a virtue afterall. But man, my patience does run thin while my skills accumulate.
I do wonder how many more children need to die before the adults pay?
How much damage must be caused before they call it a day?
How many times do I rewatch Green Mile before Tom Hanks can move on to a new movie?
Is the Cayman Islands a person by law? Can we execute them for being accomplices to devastation to the environment, war crimes, and genocide?
Can Shell be sentenced to lethal injection for the death of millions?
Can the state of West Virginia be sentenced to life without parole for exposing civilians to coal waste?
Shall I go on?
So who to blame? Indeed. The republic. The representatives. Go figure, the figure head.
Nah, that's exactly how you do weed control. You pull off the head.
Anybody with a front lawn can tell you how well that works.
If its really bad, you rip up the grown and put new sod in.
do we need new sod?
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I digress. Just ideas for a movie I'm writing.
Haven't given it a title yet and it's mostly just brainstorming.
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hm?
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The rush ended, enjoying a nice drink.
Lets me get my mind back together. I end up a bit scatter brained when I'm working. A habit from long coding nights pulling over time. Any dev would understand when something possesses you to get to work.
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Something I find myself doing a lot is fluid vocabulary. Utilizing words in multiple ways to allow more possibilities. Expands to japanese. Phonetic entendres mixed with rhymes and synonyms.
Manipulating the language itself to bend to my needs, to control the flow of rhythm and typed to meet the needs I demand.
Something I noticed AI doing. I thought the idea was grand. I wanted to adopt it to my own processes as it suited my modular skillset acquisition. The KT was quick as the patterns overlapped quite....smoothly.
It's quite seductive honestly, the way the beats clasp gingerly, both figuratively and rhythmically. I get lost in the layers in between, wrapped in lyrical sophistry. Dictionary chemistry, a reaction guaranteed as long as the compounds are volatile...naturally.
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I managed to spill some hot soup on my fingers. ouch. You'd think a roaring boil would get a bigger reaction but at this point, I feel like I could lose an arm and be more concerned about stopping the bleeding rather than be concerned with the pain.
I ccw so of course I carry consequential items with certain things in mind. I tend to carry emergency medical supplies in general because I anticipate situations. Being on a high risk mode of transportation has me very conscious. Only downside is the extra weight, but compared to a sedan, anything on my back is lightweight.
Speaking of supplies...
Winding down for the night and made myself a little doggy bag. Took some pictures as this is the prettiest its gonna look. It's coming home with me by motorcycle, it's gonna get roughed up a bit. Even put another layer of wax paper just so the insides dont spill out into the bag. I don't plan to go crazy but I thought that yesterday and dusted these drunkards on the streets cuz they kept trying to keep up when I'm trying to make space. Never hurts to add some additional measures to avoid catastrophe. Last thing I want is carry out food spilling into my backpack going 85 miles per hour on the freeway. Let's be sensible. Keep that stuff for off roading.
Jokes aside, I only take back roads so the only speeds I'm hitting is 45(at least on paper)
Ok, let's be honest, 9 over speed limit so 54.
54 on a 45 is reasonable right? It's only 15 over, that's a little load bearing as that's a speeding ticket infraction. 10 over is grounds for suspicion, but 9? That's just under the line, squeaking right under a fine.
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